Nobody answering my phone

It's the last week of the third quarter in my sales job. Many promises were made by my prospective clients. I went ahead and gave a strong forecast.
And now, my prospects have stopped answering my phone...

I think a sales job is the only job where experience teaches lessons that can NEVER be learnt elsewhere. And a strong mind matters a lot. And a tough skin matters much more. This experience will teach me lots when I run my own business - good experiences and bad ones will all teach me how to predict revenue for my enterprise. So many variables. So much optimism. But, ultimately, results matter.

I am staring at the unanswered calls-list on my mobile. The future looks bleak. I feel lost. I need help, I need a shot in the arm. I need a faint ray of hope. I need an order.

Busy mind

It's been a whirl of mental activity. Married life, professional life, etc. Lot of thoughts, lot of thinking, and a desire to bring it all to a point of sanity! More later, as the sanity (hopefully) settles in!! :)

2 days to go...

Went for the bride's mehndi ceremony today. Short stop before heading home to discuss the rites/rituals with the pandits and parents. After sticking strongly to my stand of 1.5 hr wedding ceremony, I got my way. At least on paper - I cannot trust pandits or parents when it comes to ceremonies.
The house is silent now as everyone is out - few moments of silence before 3 days of chaos. Calm before the storm.

3 days to go

3 days to go for D-day. No anxiety, etc. Passive acceptance of fate! :)
The relatives are in full swing - they always enjoy more than the bridegroom! Well, as they say in India - the weddings are for the relatives - the bridegroom are throwing a really expensive party.
I am off to work to escape the chaos at home.

Phew

The day of the wedding draws nearer. There is no confusion or sense of jitters. It's a mature acceptance - I'm quite pleased about it too.

On the work front, there is more clarity slowly emerging - and also on the practical front. It's better to be practical for now - to be in the real world. Practicality and Idealism can only co-exist in the mind, and not in Reality. It's easier if the two concepts are separately lived. There is no confusion or disillusionment or unhappiness.


I cannot give up what I don't have - so I will live in the real world for the next few years, and live out the real/practical world. Gain all the success I can. And then, maybe, give it up for the idealistic world. Let's see... One step at a time!